Miracle came and gone...

HCG test: 350...not good...needed a minimum of 390. And to top it off, red bleeding started yesterday and has gotten worse...unfreaking believable! How could this be? Looks like my dream of being a mom to my own child is gone. Only hope now to carry a baby is to go to donor eggs. Don't have words to describe the level of sadness and loss that I feel. Eating ice cream and going to bed.