Horribleness

I've been in bed for the last 22 hrs and don't want to get out. Don't want to be awake. Don't want to face reality. Why? Why is this happening to me? Why am I the one who is not able to have her own babies? I feel cheated. My dream has always been to be married and have a few babies, but that dream has always eluded me and now I feel like it's gone forever. Went through 68 fucking eggs and 18 embryos and not 1 turned into a baby. Not one.