The Universe Speaks

Ok, how absolutely amazing is this??? I get home today to find the following message in my e-mail inbox:


"...about your amazing husband, and that one day soon you will be pregnant... have you considered that once these dreams come to pass, you may become too popular to even grocery shop for yourself? Yeah, your peeps can do it for you."

"Don't forget the chocolate syrup" -
The Universe

I just have to say, how amazingly odd that is! I mean, the timing...I am 7 days post retrieval and 4 days post transfer. Still one more week until we do the pregnancy test. The waiting has been unbearably more difficult than I had thought. I mean, am I or not? I really want to believe I am. We already have one home pregnancy test and just bought another one at the dollar store, but not sure if or when we will use either. Have gotten on-line to see when is the earliest you can test, but then found out it takes 5-14 days for the pre-retrieval HCG shot to be eliminated from your system so you could get a false positive. So, going by that, the earliest we should test would be the 25th, however the 24th is Easter Sunday so it seemed appropriate to test then. Official blood test by doctor is on the 27th.

I am trying to stay positive and have faith and all, but sometimes I have doubts. Mainly because I have wanted this for so long and it has always eluded me. Can my dreams really be coming true this time? Baby Daddy just keeps telling me to "believe so I can receive". Gotta love that guy! I've said so many prayers this past few weeks to just let go and trust in God's plan for us...no matter what it is. I have to think my dreams of being pregnant and becoming a mother are bound to come true. I mean could God really give me this strong of a desire and then not fulfill it???? I want to be positive, but part of me is so afraid that it's not going to work out, yet again. How can I just trust and believe? It seems that there have been so many "signs" this time and it has felt so right and so real. I want to control the outcome, yet I know there is absolutely nothing I can do to control it. We have done everything we were supposed to and now we need to just continually let go, moment after moment. The rest is truly up to God.