Woke up at 4am with more spotting. Got up at 8am to get ready for work and went to the bathroom. Wiped and immediately started crying. What was coming out of me was definitely more than spotting and wasn't like anything I had seen before. I won't go into the gory details, but whatever it was didn't seem normal at all and all I could think of was that the babies had come out. Why?????? Called nurse and she said there are some women who bleed and go on to have normal pregnancies, but that I should prepare myself as well. The only way to know for sure is a blood test that I can't do until tomorrow. Seriously? Another 30 hours of this agonizing obsessing and wondering? I guess there is nothing else we can do.
But really, after all this? It seems like a cruel joke. So many ups and downs....things we interpreted as signs that this must be right. Amazingly, we still have some level of hope. We are wondering if it is possible for one baby to miscarry and the other one be fine? No conclusive answers found on-line thus far.
Praying...hoping...thinking of you...fingers crossed...toes too...doing fertility dances for gods each night...etc etc etc
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