Fertilization Report

14 mature eggs and 8 successfully fertilized! We have 8 babies growing in the lab - amazing!!! Better than both previous attempts. I feel like I have to give credit to the 3 months of accupuncture I have done. We are super anxious about tomorrow's report and whether or not the lab will recommend a Day 3 or Day 5 transfer. And, if they recommend Day 3, do we opt to go to Day 5 anyway. I've done so much research on the topic and it seems to be inconclusive and heavily debated. Best case scenario is that all 8 are doing fabulous tomorrow and we have to go to Day 5, thus eliminating any decision on our part. In the end, it's all up to God anyway...we just think we have some control in the matter. However, I must say I do "feel" differently this round, and can't quite put my finger on it, but I feel like I have more of a "knowing" feeling that this time will be successful. And, of course, I'm afraid to say it out loud, fearing that I will jinx it. And, once again forgetting, that God is in control and already knows exactly what the outcome will be. Hate it that He knows and we don't! We continue to remember to let go time and time again.

Retrieval

27 eggs!!!!

Day 9 Appointment

Looks like we are now ready to go....1 more day pushed another group of eggs into right size category so doc says we are good to go for Monday retrieval. Had to rush home tonight to do HCG injection right at 8:30. Only had a few minutes to prep so no time to panic like the other 2 cycles. Once again, Baby Daddy pulled through.

Day 8 Meltdown

I haven't cried once during this cycle...so it all came out today. Started with Baby Daddy getting pink eye yesterday and me being super paranoid about getting sick...then having a feeling that I had already ovulated and lost all the eggs - kept me up all night thinking about it - my stomach had been so bloated and sore and now seemed back to normal - I was so sure the eggs were gone. Then major traffic on way to appointment so I was 20 mins late. By the time I got in with the acupuncturist, I broke down. She is fabulous and was so supportive. Turns out the eggs are fine - 15 or so of them at the right size for today, but doc wants to go 1-2 more days to see if we can get more. What??? We were all ready for Sunday retrieval! Once again, plans changed.

Day 3 appointment

Today was Day 3 bloodwork, ultrasound and acupuncture. Triple whammy! I am 1-2 days ahead of schedule, which I had already suspected based on the size of my distended tummy! 15 eggs at the right size and 11 more close behind. Wow, 26!

Baby Daddy had to go in for bloodwork yesterday and fainted in the doctor's office! Seriously??? Hard to have any sympathy for him since I've been doing 3-4 shots a night and have had blood drawn probably at least 50 times this past year for various reasons.

Looks like retrieval will be Sunday with transfer likely on Wednesday. Getting closer to our dream of having a baby of our own.

Baby 3.0

Suppression check today and... green light, go! Yeah! 15 follicles at this point. Same starting number as last cycle. Start stim meds tonight. Starting to get excited again. Not sure why, but I have a more positive feeling going into this cycle. Perhaps it's been the 3+ months of weekly accupuncture appointments??? Perhaps it's just our time....for a miracle.

As they say...3rd time is a charm!

Here we are...5 months post-miscarriage (hard to believe that much time has gone by) and we are about to start our 3rd IVF cycle. We've been on this journey for well over a year now...never thought we would still be at Square 1 at this point.

We've started each cycle with a different set of emotions. This one seems to be a mix of hope and hesitancy. We never imagined we would go through 41 eggs and 10 embryos with no success. That's the equivalent of 3.5 years of trying. Wow! I want to be hopeful and think positively and at the same time am scared to have too much hope, for the fall from hope is so painful.

I think I am closer to acceptance of "what will be, will be" this time. It's really up to God. Medical science alone has not worked up to this point. What we really need is a miracle. We ask and pray for that miracle and trust in God's answer.