Now it really begins

So, today I had an Office Hysteroscopy/Sounding procedure along with our final Consent Appointment. The procedure itself only took minutes. It was really weird and interesting to see the view inside from the 2mm camera inserted into my cervix. Apparently I have a "petite" cervix, which is just fine, and the uterus looks good to go too. Of course, I broke down crying during the procedure though. Not because it hurt. I think more because with each step, this becomes more real. Am I really going to be a mommy? I still feel too young! Which is crazy, given that I am on the heels of 40!

Am I really ready for this incredible, amazing change? Baby Daddy says I am ready - that we are ready. He did fabulous in the appointment - was very supportive through the process, which I am super grateful for. And, he entertained the doctor with stories from his TESA procedure.

So, we had our entire list of questions answered...no stone unturned. And then we signed about 6 pages of consent forms. I had no idea so many decisions would need to be made along the way. How many embryos do we implant? What do we do with any "leftovers"? Who has custody? Do we donate to research? Wow.

So, the next step....start nightly injections. In total there are 4 different medications that I will need to take by injection over the course of about 3 weeks. Can't recall exactly what they all do...prevent ovulation, stimulate ovulation, mature eggs...too many details to keep straight. Most of them I will do myself since they will go into my stomach, but Baby Daddy gets the honor of doing the last one...since it will need to go into my butt! Yikes! And he's not a big fan of needles or blood. I have faith. Stay tuned for a post on that one.

In reviewing our calendar of events, the egg retrieval will happen sometime between Feb 14th and 18th. Now, wouldn't that be a miracle for conception to occur on Valentine's Day. I think that would be the perfect detail for this amazing story. But, we leave this decision to the powers that be.